• lorty@lemmygrad.ml
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    2 years ago

    Anyone have any suggestions of where I could post a video of of old soviet footage of it’s airplanes to some cool music? Couldn’t really find one here that fits

  • SlayGuevara@lemmygrad.ml
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    2 years ago

    The downside of working for an org that is trying to help as many people as possible is that I see a lot of people and I am once again sick. I used to never get sick but ever since I see a 1000 people a week my body decided to say fuck that.

  • -6-6-6-@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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    2 years ago

    Am feeling better. Am glad I have a good immune system because my family apparently is still struggling. Have an extra day to recoup because of the genocidaire holiday, so one thing at least.

    Bananas, veggie soup and elderberry is champ. Shoutout to those powdered IV packets. Already forgot the brand-name. That fucking sucked; I have no idea where that came from but I have a sneaking suspicion it was being around a group of people even while I was wearing a scarf/mask. Genuinely was horrible, never had a chill/heat cycle happen what felt like every minute before. I had COVID before and this felt worse, all though I don’t think it was COVID because I didn’t get nearly as bad “brain fog”. Who knows, been able to stay inside thankfully.

    I rewatched CCK Philosophy’s “Violent End of the German Revolution” and the Urban Guerillas one. So many bad-ass people lost almost entirely to the annals of history. It makes me sad, but hopeful in a way if that makes sense.

    • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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      2 years ago

      Fuck that.

      I’d spare some, but last time I promised, I fucked up, unfortunately, and now I still don’t have the money,.

  • cayde6ml@lemmygrad.ml
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    2 years ago

    Not that I particularly care much for the mainstream media, but Trump apparently signed an executive order, stamping out the last few vestiges of democracy this country pretended to have.

    Time to start learning Mandarin.

  • amemorablename@lemmygrad.ml
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    2 years ago

    How do you directly/privately message the mods of a community? Or do you have to DM a specific mod? I know of the report feature for specific posts, but thinking of broader message than that.

  • -6-6-6-@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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    2 years ago

    Getting into it with someone IRL and having them straight up say that “Of course America will be able to actually catch up and compete if we get some of the loose baggage off of us!”

    (This loose baggage is things like D.E.I, trans etc)

    Despite the unpleasantry, I was able to get them to at least admit that cutting government programs isn’t gonna make us somehow compete with China. Nor spending billions on programs that only cost China hundreds of millions. Decent progress, despite the bad-taste in my mouth.

    The thing that makes me genuinely shocked though is that there are a lot of burgers who think that by just being as racist, homophobic piece of shit settlers even harder that somehow that will absolve their country of struggle and decay. Somehow that will solve all the issues…it’s the “third column” holding our country back…apparently. I suppose all the propaganda of “China bad” in terms of convincing burgers of their wunderwaffe compared to “inferior chinese products” really did take a toll.

    • cimbazarov@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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      2 years ago

      I think it’s a result of declining material conditions and concessions being given to oppressed minorities coinciding at the same time. The two are separate things, but timing wise they coincide so it’s really easy to falsely link them as cause and effect.

      • -6-6-6-@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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        2 years ago

        Yup. It also confirms and validates notions about tradition to them; “truly things were better back then with no woke!”.

      • Commiejones@lemmygrad.ml
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        2 years ago

        I feel like this is the key to neo-liberalism/crypto-fascism today. Without this move class consciousness would be way more advanced in western nations.

  • cimbazarov@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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    2 years ago

    At risk of sounding like a lib, I really do feel we are missing some kinda strong and intellectual leader type that goes against the status quo. Unfortunately the only leaders willing to go against the status quo are people like Trump and Milei, who I dont really consider strong. Even the status quo they go against is in more of a backwards cultural way rather than economic, because economically the status quo is already trending towards neoliberalism. This could also just be me being western biased, there are things going on in the Sahel states that I’m not too informed on.

    Putin maybe? But he seems to be another capitalist at the end of the day. China is off doing their own thing. The whole Gaza genocide and Syria collapse just made Iran look really weak to me, but idk Im just an amateur looking at the situation from afar. Guess the west is literally just going to collapse through its own contradictions with no one there to pick up the pieces yea

    • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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      2 years ago

      I feel like we need to prize the proletariat and the common person more often than “another Lenin.”

    • dvhen@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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      2 years ago

      Mélenchon in France and his party is doing a lot of work considering the insanely reactionary politics currently ongoing in his country.

      Putin does not only seem to be a capitalist. He’s 100% a capitalist, he just happens to be from a country the US hates. More than a capitalist, putin is a reactionary asshole doing exactly the same kind of shit far right politicians in the rest of the world are trying to do, plunder all they can while blaming minorities for it.

      Furthermore, I would argue Milei and Trump are not really going against the status quo, they just removed the veneer of “civility” liberals love to tout while doing the same shit.

    • -6-6-6-@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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      2 years ago

      A lot of burgers are locked entirely into mainstream media; or the revolving NGOs masquerading as news agencies revolving around it. With a good chunk of the population entirely subsumed into the narratives presented on prime-time, I think it’s really, really hard for anyone “counter-cultural” to either not be coopted or casted out entirely when they don’t follow orders.

      I mean, look at Greta.

      • cayde6ml@lemmygrad.ml
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        2 years ago

        I thought that Greta was moving in the right direction, lately? I get that she is probably still a neoliberal, but I remember thinking she is becoming more radical. The good kind of radical.

        • Comprehensive49@lemmygrad.ml
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          2 years ago

          You’re right about Greta’s leanings toward more radicalism. The previous poster’s point is that people like Greta are touted by media when they’re not radical, but get dropped once they do.

          Thus you won’t find these excellent leaders by watching mainstream capitalist media.

          Having listened to Eugene Puryear of the PSL speak, his ability to connect cross-cultural historical knowledge with today’s struggles make him a great one to follow: https://www.instagram.com/pslbayarea/reel/DGPasWHRf_h/

  • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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    2 years ago

    I didn’t sleep well last night and ended up taking twice my ADHD meds.

    I shouldn’t have done that.

    I have 3 days extra though so thankfully I won’t run out before it’s time to get a new batch.

    • LeGrognardOfLove@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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      2 years ago

      Ouch. What kinda effect did it have ?

      I’m on 40 mg Lisdexamfetamine. There was a day when I took it twice because my routine was messed up.

      I ended up cleaning the house all day, make way too much food for the week, call my mom four times, while I was supposed to take it easy because I had a bad week and was near exhaustion already.

      • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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        2 years ago

        I’m on 60 mg of Lisdexamfetamine.

        I took the first at 1:00 AM and the second one at 1:00 PM.

        It… didn’t seem to have much effect because I’m tired af.

        So that seems to have countered whatever urge for productivity I had or have.

        • LeGrognardOfLove@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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          2 years ago

          Is 1 am the time you usually take it at? I tend to try and keep it at the same hour. It has a small half life, but it doesn’t mean it has no half life, I try to keep the concentration the same.

          It’s new to me, as I went undignosed for 40 years, so I’m still very wary of it.

          • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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            2 years ago

            Err, no, I don’t take it usually at 1:00 AM. I usually take it at 7:00 or 8:00 AM, maybe 9:00 AM. What happened was that I woke up super-early and, well, I had to do something important and so I worked in the morning. Foolish of me, in all honesty. I should’ve never done that.

            I’m glad you were able to get the Vyvanse after 40 years or so, though of course, it’s fine to be wary of it.

            Still, it’s useful, and I acutely need it, tbh.

            • LeGrognardOfLove@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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              2 years ago

              I have been diagnosed this year by a neuropsychologist with TSA, ADHD, Giftedness and Alexithymia. I’m a fortyish person who all his life though he was the most stupid people alive, yet have achieved a lot of stuff normal people won’t even try.

              I have a second degree black belt in Kyukushinkai, a first degree black belt in Tenshin Shōden Katori Shintō-ryū, which was delivered by Goro Hatakeyama. I have been challenged by my old teacher in Kyukushinkai to break a baseball bat, which I did, cement blocks, which I did and to do 25 000 kicks in a row, which I also did. I also did the 100 persons Kumite, which I stupidly did. I know how to brew beer at a very good level, having won a few competitions. I am a master code monkey - I have built the simulator for Janet Echelman, worked on both Unity and Unreal Engine, worked as a team lead in several big tech places, including the propaganda arm of Canada in quebec (radio-canada), worked at most known place in my province. I know how to cook at home chef level, being a modernist cook. I know about 65% of human history. I know a lot of comparative mythology. I have read a lot of philosophy, from plato to marx while reading and hating all those fake modern philosophers from the right. I have planned and done a 9 year TTRPG campaign in fate core were each played played 5 characters ( think post-humans ) I am taking care of two fully grown adult that are cognitively far worst than me ( my wife organization skill are abysmal and the anxiety makes her nearly non-functionnal ) and her brother who is a deeply autistic recovering alcoholic.

              So, when I was burnt out, my doc put me on paxil and then effexor and a neurostimulator. Effexor is shit for me, It mess me up completely and so I am on the third month of weaning - I get brain zaps and shakes and tiredness - been like that for months now.

              Now I understand I’m not that stupid, just chemically imbalanced.

              So, with all that said, do you think the neurostim is good for me ? My doc is a tool so I have to rely on conversations with other persons who have experiences that looks like mine …

              • Makan@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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                2 years ago

                So, when I was burnt out, my doc put me on paxil and then effexor and a neurostimulator. Effexor is shit for me, It mess me up completely and so I am on the third month of weaning - I get brain zaps and shakes and tiredness - been like that for months now.

                I’ve heard mixed things about this. You may be suffering from trauma and need a medication for trauma and tiredness.

                That being said, the Vyvanse definitely helps, and that’s what everyone who takes it says that I know of.

                But I’ll say this, I feel tired a lot, not due to my ADHD or meds, but because I may have what’s known as chronic fatigue and trauma (well, the trauma I have for sure). I have C-PTSD, which everyone should look up, and try to alleviate.

                • LeGrognardOfLove@lemmygrad.mlEnglish
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                  2 years ago

                  Ouch!

                  My wife has CPTSD from being abused as a child. I got her on Prazosin for her nightmare disorder. It’s way better - but not perfect.

                  I should have trauma, my life story sucks and when I tell people what I went through they mostly disbeleive me.

                  I am from first nation descent in the apartheid state of canada and most “colonial” canadians don’t understand what it means…

                  But all anti-depressant I tried just messed me up - made me feel and act very differently from what I usually am. I didn’t like it.

                  So… How you holding up?