I was in a relationship with a person for 3 months until they broke it off because they appearently were not ready. Despite that we stayed close. We’d watch anime every night, play video games and just talk about the everyday mundane stuff that people talk about when they are close. Good morning and night messages. This weird grey area situationship continued for about a year. Lately I noticed they just didn’t seem that interested in hanging out as much, they’d still talk the same amount but suddenly their time went elsewhere. I thought that was odd. But we’d still play around or do stuff here or there. And suddenly it got better, we hung out way more, great! And then today I accidently stumbled on a picture of them with another woman in a very affectionate and close way. I think a part of me deep down believed that maybe we’d be together again when they got better and cleaned up their life like they said they would. Thought maybe it would work out. I feel like a fool. They seem to treat be as someone special. The way they talk, the things they do. Offered to pay for broken appliances. I made them something and they still use it everyday. And then there’s just… that picture. I can’t shake the picture out of my mind. It’s just extremely painful. I thought I mattered to them. The woman in the photo, he never had a photo like that with me. Never that close. Calls me petnames but never that close. Doesn’t know I’ve seen the photo.

Anyway that’s enough devastated rambiling. What do you guys like to do when you’re sad? I’ve got a couple anime and movies lined up… I also got some new books… I don’t like to ramble and vent but the year has been tough. I hope it’s been treating you better than it has for me and I hope all of you are well. It’s tough right now but we’ll make it out okay. If you have any recommendations for shows/movies or books I’d love to hear them.