can you briefly expand on the first two? i’m turning the responses into a small dataset to share with everyone and don’t want to misinterpret you. are “Stirnerites” some breed of anarchist? and, by left-wing fascist sympathizer do you just mean a left liberal?

perhaps, it’s just that any group of federal operators and analyzers probably have this dataset and more about us already. thanks for giving your own personal perspective on it, though.

i hate them; they’re all vague, postmodern, unapproachable and idealist garbage. not understanding them is part of the point, so that those who think the films are deep can wax poetic about how amazing they are, but then fall back on any interpretation they like whenever serious criticisms are levied at the works or their underlying ideology.

that fight was definitely hard for me, but probably within 10 tries i got it. but yeah, i was going to say: worst case scenario you just watch a let’s play or an overview to get the whole story.

i would recommend you finish it, you’re really quite far anyways.

obviously if you’re not that great at bullet hell i can understand it being a hard time, but i wasn’t that great either (never really played any bullet hell before) and i got better enough that it was a reasonable challenge but not too frustrating over the course of the game. i thought the different mechanics used within the bullet hell JRPG framework were clever throughout.

in terms of writing, it’s really a story totally focused and revolved around the characters. if you don’t like the characters you’re not going to have a good time, but if you do you’ll have a great time.

as far as ideology it’s obviously very liberal but for a reason slightly different and/or deeper than what you describe: after all, the monsters in the story could reasonably be interpreted as a nation exploited/oppressed by the humans, which is good. but, the story takes place from the perspective of that nation (with the exception of the main character, who is just an insert) as opposed to the fact that the vast majority of “gamers” come from an exploiting class (white, men, etc). furthermore, as you touch on, the story posits that peace by all means (literally pacifism) is the way to resolve that exploiter/exploited contradiction, which is of course deeply, deeply liberal.

tbh not sure how this could be perceived as fedposting, i’m not asking anyone to give any personally identifiable information.

i think the most you could use it for is to create study questions for yourself since they can be pretty open-ended, but even that is suspect since again the LLM doesn’t know what to test you for (or what you want to test yourself for), it’s just a system of stringing together words. that’s the most i would use it for, though.

i hate adobe

music with the intention of learning chinese? i’m not sure about that, but ultimately i wouldn’t recommend since tones aren’t used when singing songs and so it requires a lot more contextual information to understand what’s actually being said. i would recommend starting with simple listening practice of people speaking: peppa pig is a popular starting point. but, making it a daily habit is the most important part! i haven’t been great about studying for quite a while haha

我希望你有很好的时间在学习中文！不是太难

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yeah, it’s hard to know how that would affect you without having done it first. but, you could always try it out and see what the experience is like first to give yourself that information in the first place. without knowing the details of your situation, that seems less risky than becoming homeless.

i can understand that. there’s a lot of pressure when your life and well-being is on the line, and you’re feeling pulled in different directions.

i’ve definitely had relatively positive work experiences over the course of my life so far, but even the best has issues or problems that need to be resolved for one way or another. obviously the severity of those issues and problems can vary, though. why do you ask?

i have absolutely no experience with that and so wouldn’t feel confident giving you any advice regarding it. however, with my limited knowledge it seems like becoming homeless would also be extremely challenging for your mental health, so it’s hard for me to give you any further suggestions. ultimately the person who knows what would be the best for you is probably you. hope you find whatever that road is.

that’s exactly what i mean by material support, yes: how much money, but also social support you have. i referenced this because it is much, much easier to work on your mental health while having some sort of material support.

i don’t know what kind of situation you have with your parents (what they would require you to do, or how negatively that would impact you), but i guess i would weigh doing their bidding specifically so that you can have the time and resources to improve your mental health (which will then allow you to more safely move out later, likely), vs leaving and not having that social support and needing to find it elsewhere or support yourself.

i only have limited experience with that kind of relationship with parents, but i understand that it is really tough. them holding material support (and really your very life) above your head so that you’ll do what they want you to do is stressful, toxic and damaging. again, wishing you the best.

i’m not sure what your material support situation is, but i would devote as much time as possible to improving your mental health. i’m sure this is extremely relevant to you and would directly impact your quality of life. there’s no shame in it, because levels of mental health struggles are as high as ever in the west and seem to be steadily increasing in quantity and severity. this certainly seems to be the case even when looking at how common such struggles are on this website.

i’ve said this elsewhere, but a lot of my recovery from mental illness has revolved around distinguishing between whether something is correct, or valid. when i’ve felt extremely depressed, the experience and all of the feelings and thoughts associated with it is totally valid (i.e. it is rational, likely a learned behavior that i learned for good reason, although not consciously). however, it is usually primarily incorrect: it tends to focus more on the negative than reality actually reflects, and it leads to worse outcomes for myself as well.

reflecting on the way you think and the reasons why you feel the way you do (all of them valid, some of them correct) is a very challenging process, but it’s something that i think is essentially required for actually recovering from mental illness. after all, how can you correct or even improve something if you’re not aware of what exactly happens and why? i think of this as historical materialism applied to the self, really. and, like most things, it’s the hardest when just starting out and continues to get easier and easier as you go.

wishing you the best, comrade.

revolutionary optimism is literally baked into dialectical materialism: if you look at the state of a thing as being negative, then you focus more on improving it than its currently (and inherently transitory) negative state. if you can’t improve it, then you see how you can use the worsening state to later improve it. this certainly is the case for all exploitative class relations, but also applies to just about everything else as well.

i’m not sure what your diet is/was, but the recommended weight loss rate is no more than 1-2 lbs per week. i would count your calories for a few days and make sure that you’re getting enough each day just to be sure.

i think one of the saddest parts of lolcow culture is that, 9 times out of 10, the subject of mockery has no choice but to pander to the whims of their bullying audience due to being homeless, disabled, or otherwise materially desperate. what social support they do have access to is usually sabotaged by the lolcow audience as much as possible. it is incredibly cruel.

And people always talk about internal validation, but that only gets you so far. Which, I’m sure this isn’t healthy, allegedly putting stock in how others treat me, but it’s literal human nature.

i suggested to become as self-reliant as possible as it relates to validation, not to become completely self-reliant which would be impossible. yes, we should surround ourselves and only allow people into our lives that are kind, supportive and validating to us, which does not seem to describe this person whatsoever.