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  • I have the same thing (Long Description)

    It’s just really quiet I guess, but it’s normal to me. I only first thought about it as being different when someone told me their inner voice was being mean to them and wouldn’t shut up, which just completely baffled me. It led to my discovery that others actually really do have voices in their head, it’s not a metaphor or mental illness like I previously thought from TV.

    I think it’s fundamentally similar to everyone else’s experience though. If I relax my brain, it will cycle through thoughts and memories as a train of thought, but there’s no sound or visuals. To me I just get the emotions and the concept. Using the famous apple example, I remember the experience of holding and eating an apple, the taste, smell, texture, shape, weight, physics, geometry, the emotions of eating it, it’s all there, but I feel it rather than see it.

    Benefits

    I’m really good at programming, maths, physics, science, that kind of thing, because I can “feel” the rules and intuitively solve things without even thinking about it logically. I tend to notice things other people miss just because they feel out of place, with almost nothing to go on. An example would be if I’m given an error message, I don’t even have to debug to find the problem, because it feels like the bug is over there in that function. I’m usually correct, but I can’t explain how I got there, which made school… difficult haha.

    Sometimes I like to just sit down and close my eyes, and think about the concept of nothing, and just have a completely blank mind for a while. It’s really relaxing and restful, and it feels like time goes by 10x faster. It’s probably some kind of meditation but I don’t know the names of stuff like that. I’ve been told I’m very patient and calm.

    Downsides

    I’m extremely bad at learning second-hand. Either by reading or being shown or talked to. The only way I can ever learn anything is if I experience it first-hand, which made university… difficult haha. Jump in completely unprepared and fuck up kind of learner.

    Visual descriptions in books are boring to me for obvious reasons. I skip those parts completely and only read the social and action parts. Poetry makes no sense at all to me, except haikus and rhymes. I get lost very frequently, and I struggle with visual logic puzzles. I struggle to remember the name of colours and distinguish them, but I have no colour blindness at all.

    I’m extremely bad at explaining and describing things to other people, and also struggle to understand others’ explanations. When people are talking to me in a conversation, I don’t remember the exact words they said, only the emotional gist and meaning. When I’m talking to someone, I can’t really plan ahead what I’m going to say, and I can’t remember what I’ve already said, so if I’m interrupted at all I have to start again like a broken NPC in a video game. People get really frustrated with me, but I can’t really blame them lol

    Drawing pictures is extremely challenging, I have to do it “mathematically” by ratio. Like ok the hair goes down 60% of their face, the curvature of their jaw it’s like almost straight, and angles more aggressively about half way to mildly curved then their chin comes out of nowhere at 80% to the bottom… I have no talent at all for drawing, it’s crazy hard for me, but I still do it anyway for fun. People are like just practice and you’ll improve! There’s no amount practice to replace something that’s completely missing haha

    Anyway, proud of you if you actually read all that wild ride






  • I had this exact problem with games like Doom Eternal. Even in easy mode, I really struggled with that game because I only could play one mission per week or two. So I’m rolling into the final boss battle having forgotten how to use the chainsaw or the grenades or flamethrower, and I just get my ass kicked. I spend 45 minutes dying and relearning the game, 15 minutes playing, and then I have to stop again.

    Thankfully in that game you can just use cheats like infinite lives, but many games have no cheats or easy mode. I still have no idea how I got to the final boss in Bloodborne and Sekiro, I think I just cheesed the A.I. lol




  • Zarobi@aussie.zoneOPtoGames@lemmy.worldI Hate Native Linux Games
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    18 hours ago

    Oh yes that’s right, you awakened a traumatic repressed memory where I keep all my games on a secondary SSD and because I installed either snap or flatpak (can’t remember), it just shit itself and failed to work properly. Took me ages to figure that out.

    It would be nice if there was actually good native Linux games. Imagine how buttery smooth they would run. Valve games one of the reasons they’re so enjoyable is they run perfectly on Linux, chef’s kiss. But they made the steam deck so it would be silly if they didn’t



  • Zarobi@aussie.zoneOPtoGames@lemmy.worldI Hate Native Linux Games
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    19 hours ago

    I don’t get noticeable FPS hits or graphical issues with Proton. In fact, in many cases Proton actually outperforms Windows in FPS.

    I don’t think many people are willing to mess with that symlink stuff to be honest, I know I’d only do it if I had a really good reason to. But I’m not a Linux expert, I don’t really understand that kind of stuff and would probably fuck up my game or system if I tried. I know enough to read and mostly comprehend commands that I’m copy pasting into terminal




  • Zarobi@aussie.zoneOPtoGames@lemmy.worldI Hate Native Linux Games
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    19 hours ago

    Yeah exactly. At first glance native = better; probably because we have had so much experience with non-native stuff being garbage, like Electron apps and such. But Proton Is Not an Emulator, it actually is much more clever than that.

    You end up with the opposite of what you initially expected, where you’re asking each individual developer to target an environment they’re not familiar with, probably can’t easily test, and for very little renumeration. If anything it’s surprising some developers even manage to make good native Linux versions at all.

    It’s much better IMO to rely on the very smart people working on WINE / Proton to handle the compatibility layer, where all that Linux specific knowledge can be put to the most efficient use. Especially because Linux isn’t just one thing, it’s like a billion things, so it’s really not an easy task at all.

    In my mind the only thing that could be done is to make Proton’s job easier in some way. Like if more games used Vulkan instead of DX11, that would probably help compatibility between all OS’, right? Maybe or maybe not, I’m not particularly knowledgeable about the details of that kind of stuff.


  • Zarobi@aussie.zoneOPtoGames@lemmy.worldI Hate Native Linux Games
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    19 hours ago

    I see, that’s very confusing and interesting, thank you.

    Generally I just try to install things “normally” if possible, like for Steam I just went to their website and downloaded the installer. I often get weird file system and audio and other problems with flatpak and snap, so I just decided one day to avoid those sources if possible lol



  • Zarobi@aussie.zoneOPtoGames@lemmy.worldI Hate Native Linux Games
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    20 hours ago

    Yeah that’s true as well. Nothing is perfect, I was just sharing my experience because even today I ran into this issue multiple times and got annoyed.

    I noticed people here seem to attribute a lot more meaning to downvotes than other websites, and it’s even a bit taboo to downvote too often. Personally I don’t really think about it that deeply, there’s always people who will disagree with you


  • Zarobi@aussie.zoneOPtoGames@lemmy.worldI Hate Native Linux Games
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    20 hours ago

    Bro that’s not a small tip, that’s an epic tip. Makes it so much easier to see what’s actually happening. Ideally there would be that information visible at all times and also in Big Picture Mode, instead of hidden behind a button click in desktop only, but I’ll primarily use it to quickly check compatibility at the time of install. Thanks mate!